How to Withhold

When did so many people

Find their way to me?

I love them all

Romantically

Platonically

Sexually

I want to give myself to every last one of them


I don't know how to withhold myself

How to be alone

How to stay with my thoughts

I need instructions

On how to please them


They need to hear everything I feel

Everything I think

Every whim

Every fantasy

Played out in agonizing detail

For their entertainment

For a moment's novelty

For them.


They need me.

They need all of me.


They might forget I'm here.


The way my parents did.

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